dream.believe.inspire.

today, i developed a newfound appretiation for the poor and the homeless. first of all, not only do they have the jobs that make our lives easier (ie, housekeeper, janitor, fast food employee), but they are also strong contributors to conserving this doomed planet. you see, when i was walking back from class, i saw a chinese man digging through trash cans, one after another, looking for recyclables. in the long run, they'll probably help society/mankind more than most of us..simply because we don't realize how big of a treat global warming is. the demand for the luxurious life, air conditioning, fast transportation, surplus of shit we don't need, is going to be the death of us. what happened to the good ol' days? of course i wasn't alive during the good ol' days when presidents actually cared about the good of the country, and the simple fact that i'm writing this post makes me a hypocrite..because i am sitting in a well-lighted, automatic air conditioned room with my laptop out and ipod in hand. but what the hell, i try to help save our planet too...if there are two trash cans, one for organics, the other for inorganics, i'll throw my trash into the correct bin..unless of course the correct bin is one step too far...

to make things easier...my wish list...

1.) def poetry
2.) Joanna Pacitti- This Crazy Life
3.) $ (for my wii fund)
4.) Shut Up and Sing poster
5.) rubik's cube
6.) ..your beautiful smile =)


i'll update when i think of more things i want

one thing i do everyday is checking cnn.com for current events. granted, i don't spend more than 5 minutes at the site, i still get the gist of the crappy world we're living in today. but this morning when i checked it, the headline was about a suicide bomber with a grip load of explosives in his car crashing into a market killing over a hundred people..that's a lot of deaths. but then i saw another headline sayin something about a tornado hitting florida or something like that..and i thought "damn, what about all those hurricanes that hit before? are they making any progress in rebuilding the south?" anyway, the point is, the world is full of problems and we need to fix 'em..we need to start somewhere. we need to stop global warming so the human race won't become extinct, we need to put capable people in the presidential seat, and we need to voice our opinions so we are heard. this is our world as much as it is the politicians.

everyone has their own issues, but this, the fate of the world, it's something we collectively have to make better. or else we'll die.


have a nice day! =D

hello everyone!

so after a very long break, i've decided to blog again. simply because it's easier to take my mind off things, and i'd like to share my everyday experiences with you..(whoever you are). so feel free to comment, argue, or just say hello.

today was my first time going to the coffee house at the barn. it was spectacular. i've been meaning to go since last year, but i've finally got around to it just now. i really enjoy good lyrics and live music. anyway, i can surely see myself going there very wednesday for open mic and and preformance afterwards.

also, 'tis the season where a lotta youngsters are visiting the campus..so when i walked passed them i realized that: 1.) i'm old, 2.) i never had the opportunity to go to college campus when i was in middle school, and 3.) they're all mexican. anywho, i just thought it was interesting..and of course right after i passed them i tripped on a tree root sticking outta the dirt. smooth operator.

toodles.


feeling so lost
where did i go wrong?
i just want to find a place
where i belong.
i'm ready for love,
and i need to feel your touch...

matt shockley_play along

live journal revival.

so my philosophy class is called: ethics and the meaning of life. of course, if you know me, this is totally my thing..so of course i took it. but when i took it, i thought i'd get this old, plato, aristotle-like man who has a white hair and a little limp or something to teach me the meaning of life. turns out i got this one guy, probably mid/late 30's whose got a head full of brown hair...and limp-less. so then it thought, ok, maybe this guy knows what he's talking about, that's why he's so young and teaching this kind of class...but then when he gave his first lecture, he starts to repeat himself...and then he starts to go into vauge descriptions about key points. so then, now i'm thinkin, oh great, i'm not gonna learn crap in this class with this guy, no secret to the meaning of life for me. but then when i went to my discussion for this class, the ta pretty much spelled out the meaning of life for us, of course, when he told us he said it so nonchalantly that it didn't seem like it was important at all -.-  anyway, for those of you who are still in search of the meaning of life, here it is: aristotle claims that to live a meaningful life, one must live rationally. back in the day, to live 'rationally', one must be virtuous..however, to be 'virtuous', one must be excellent (in moral personality), to be habitually good, to do good without selfish intentions, and one must intentionally do good (as opposed to accidentally do good). so there you go people, with those virtues, and rational thinking/living...you'll reach eudaimoniamism (florishing, happiness). bottom line...happiness is the meaning to life...it's just a matter of how you reach this specific type of happiness.

mindy's b-day is tomorrow! early happy b-day if you read this mindation!

since i have spare time rite now, i figured i could update my lj since i havn't done so ina while. hmm, so we're finally in college, the moment we've been waiting for right? even though a lot of us (i.e. me) didn't really end up where we ideally thought we would, everything still turned out to be alright. you can't really complain when you get a chance to start a new life.

ucr's alright. it really comes down to letting your self determine if you want to enjoy it or not. if you hate it, then  you won't like it, obviously...so i suppose i've grown to like, not love ucr. the weather sucks butt when you're living in the freaking desert, food's questionable at times, and the dining hours suck (not to mention my class hours too). on the flip side, this is where i am...and it takes less energy to just be content with the fact that i'm here than to battle it all year long. because...when it comes down to it, this is college life, just not at the college that i want to be at. so i mean, i can't complain when i wake up for class at 10 and walk to class in the morning (while it's still a little cool), listening to my ipod and just enjoying my time here. because here is now, and now won't last forever. college has so much to offer, for everyone..we just have to let ourselves discover it.

and another thing i noticed is that distance does some friendships good. because when we see each other again, it's like..we forget some of the issues we had and just focus on having a good time. well, at least that's what i wish would happen more often.

with that, i shall close with some alone time with ryan =D

so much beauty in life
shinning on the outside
empty on the inside
i get lost sometimes
blinded by the flashing lights
distractions always in my eyes

so i'm following the sound
the sound of my heart..
beating..

you can take it all away
i don't need it
underneath i'll still be the same
you can take it all away
i don't need it, it's not me
you can take it all, take it all away
i'll still be the same...

ryan's so cool cabrera_take it all away

baby it's you,
when i look up in the sky,
then i turn and close my eyes.
it's you, when i'm sitting all alone in my room
everything reminds me of you.

ryan cabrera_it's you

ps, if any of you guys find a poster of ryan nakie w/ just his guitar..TELL ME!

what is it about rain that makes it so mysterious and b-e-a-utiful? so spectacular. sprinkle some lightning, and BAM, pretty as can be. it seems like, rain washes things away, and lets nature start over on a clean slate. same goes for people i guess...

let 'em fall baby fall
just like the rain washes it all
if the tears will help you to heal
all that is real, all that is wrong
let 'em fall

ryan hotness cabrera_fall baby fall

i havn't been writing lately, mainly because i realized that it's hard to speak my mind without offending people. it's not that everything i have to say is offensive, it's just...sometimes i either don't mean to be judgemental, or i don't mean to be as harsh as it sounds..but it just comes out that way in text. there's a lot that's been happening these past few weeks, so i'll try my best to say what needs to be said.

first of all, i just came back from san jose. my grandma was up there (since i have family up there too), but she got sick and ended up in the hospital. a few days, a lot of hours waiting, and a surgery later, she came out just fine. but being there, and actually just being there in that enviornment of so much uncertainty, of so much out of our hands is something that will change people. no matter how we live our lives, if someone we hate is in need, we will come to their aide. because in situations like these, the only remedy is the heart and what it can give (and i ain't talkin' about blood!). it helps you open your eyes, like a good reminder, of what truly matters in life, in my life.

apart from that, everyone's also moving in now. i can't believe that summer's over alreaday...even though i did a whole mess of stuff this summer, it feels like it wasn't long enough. although, when i think back to hawaii, it feels like it's been a year since that. but it occured to me that this is a new beginning. it is a chance to build character, and friendships, and hopes, and love. it's a chance to be compassionate, to be intuitive, to love, to love deeply. there's so much out there there in this world of ours just waiting for us. i can only hope that we, as the next generation, won't be afraid to embrace every experience we'll encounter, whether it's good or bad. i hope that fear won't play a role in our paths, wherever they may lead.  there are more people rooting for us to succeed rather than fail.

"you can take the road that takes you to the stars, i will take the road that will see me through" -nick drake